Monday, September 27, 2010

Husbandry

Spring
In terrifying thorny cases
thistle grows
with purple spring blooms
in great patches
no sweat or toil brings to bear.

The sight of ivy
and sumac recalls the itch
on my arms.
Ancient hedera pollutes water;
animals no longer drink
or embrace with impunity.




Revelation
If I set this field on fire with one
match and watch spiders
fly and rats race
to where snakes wait
with open mouths,

if I fear for goats and cows,
dream them devoured
trying to clear the field
I won’t go near,

will I then see the creek
and stand on its banks
in the vast paradise
of sycamores?




Cupidity
Young boys lust for fire,
a pile of gasoline and a bic
to take care of it all. 

They would steal and scorch an acre
by the creek, swing
from vines, and land bellyup
in leavings of cattle
from upstream
and be lucky
to survive the depth.




Avarice
Covetous field
of neighboring green,
more or less natural
to be cleaned,
trimmed by herds
gathered by the creek
that can no longer
glut themselves
on balding plane.




Penance
In winter the creek is
no place for old pets.
The cancerous hound
cannot be buried
in clay iced over. 

The mare, undernourished,
dies on the Sabbath
beside my car. 

We share an age,
23,
and I too am growing
cold and overtired
of slogging home
on ice-packed snow,
feet never touching
solid ground.




Fall
Marked for defeat, unable
to convince scorched earth
to yield, the labor
of husbandry never ends.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Pipe

How it sits among the old mason
jars on some tall and half-forgotten shelf
piled high with remnants of dead skin
waiting for the inevitable touch — every cell
in young bodies yearns to break the rule
unspoken:  all belongings belong to the father. 

Standing on a three-legged cedar stool
notched with knife strokes for every year,
the boy stretches long and hard into
the future in this same house committed to the woods
watching his few children by peeking through
the door as they sneak     rise     hope     & brood
over the empty space in the dust that still
keeps the shape, the outline of the long stem,
the empty bowl that has now come to be filled
with time and dark flavored tobacco. 

The slim
arms rescind as they must, hands full
of the final souvenir of a life’s vision — other
hands may come up empty and keep the rule
of possessions, but pipes are handed down from the father.  

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Lost Love



“The only thing we do not find [in dreams] is what can to some extent reconcile an educated man to life—scientific and artistic enjoyment.”
~Eduard von Hartmann (quoted in Freud’s Interpretation of Dreams)

“He’s dreaming of his lost love;
A goat with no horns, hooves, and hide.”
~Abayomi Animaschaun, “Anecdote of a Goat”


Just the other day I heard tell
of an earless goat.

Just two holes in his head
you could see straight through to the other side.

Cost five bucks but I had to
see for myself.

The goat held still
well enough, and I looked

as through a kaleidoscope
and saw the crystalline fragments

of colors in the pokeberry and bramble
lining the fence on the far side of the goat.

And as the scope turned
the coruscant pieces

wended their way into a new
shape, the form of some past

life—or some inverted version
of this one.  In the summer heat

of the open field
I felt the grass gather around me

and rise up through the cleft
in my feet.  I could smell

the familiar stench of beasts
like it was part of me,

like everything I gathered into myself—
the great hoard of vines,

of briars and berries,
thistle and grape leaves

and amorous imaginings—
was the ample fortunes of animal dreams.

What great prophet could boast
visions from the ears of a goat?

Not kneeling before green fire
in the mouth of a cave,

nor fasting in the adyton,
a farmer can glory in great divinations

knowing only that the substance
of the dreams of beasts is perpetual consumption.

Consumption of art and science
reconciles man to life

but not the life of dreams and something
beyond life, the lost love of the intangible.

Cassandra’s curse was never to be believed,
but mine is the terror of not saying

anything worth believing.
The nightmare of myopia

is that the goat’s dreams
are vaster than my own.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

The Last Time

Two fathers vied for fish
and a son.
I, who am fixed
at 8 or 9 in their minds,
felt the coming divide,
felt the call of motion.
Trolling for long hours
lacked the draw
of activity--
the fisherman's patience
lost on young limbs,
like my lures
left above the lake's ivied banks.
I could never get the hang
of the direction
of the line,
would clot the reel
and feel a father's ire.

One father taught me to catch,
the other to clean.

It was the eyes
that scared me away then,
unreal fish eyes
looking like drops of blood.
And I, stilled if only for one
moment, suffered
the fish to writhe there:
the fish that might have risen,
transfigured,
that might have spoken,
that might have appeared as a man,
and I as a boy--
the perpetual child
of my fathers' remembering--
forced to see the truth,
that the scales must be removed
from the living.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Prophecy (Revised)

The voice of one crying in the wilderness

Was it merely a kick
or had prophecy returned
when Jean Baptiste stirred
from his mother’s digestion?

Looking forward to the days
of crazy John stalking desert
rocks for—what is it? manna,
for Providence,
and receiving crisp locusts,
he roused from a 400-year slumber,
the deep sleep between gyres.

Foreglimpsing the suckling
breast, he confused it
with honey in the wilderness,
foresuffering decapitation
and pretense at cannibalism,
he felt the coming Messiah
in the womb and word of his aunt.

Prophecy runs in the blood;
Elizabeth wept
before she heard the crying voice.

The Great Sand Dunes


Backtracking along the slender slopes impossible to climb,
except for those who slosh their way 900 feet to the top.
We can dump our shoes a thousand times and only pile the dunes higher
and deeper as the winds grow over the flaming range.

The sand, a young girl, and I are everywhere stung,
without high-blown backs of waves
breaking the mountainous dust of our days as we crouch in balls
as small as we can make ourselves, cowled
in whatever clothing we can find. One of us weeps.

There will be no more sea in the world
to come, no release for our dry throats in the new Heaven
and new earth, for the first has passed away.

Notice the smoke on the mountain,
how the salamanders cover the crags in their haste
to the end of the lightning bolt, the promise that the world will end in a flash,
turned to heat, and the great sand dunes will turn to glass.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Prophecy

The voice of one crying in the wilderness


Was it merely a kick or had prophecy returned

when Jean Baptiste stirred from mother’s

digestion? Looking forward to the days

of crazy John stalking desert

rocks for—what is it? manna, for Providence,

and receiving crisp locusts, he roused

from 400-year slumber, the deep

sleep between gyres. Foreglimpsing

the suckling breast, he confused it with honey

in the wilderness, foresuffering decapitation and pretense

at cannibalism, he felt the coming Messiah

in the womb and word of his aunt. Prophecy

runs in the blood, Elizabeth wept

before she heard the crying voice.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Untitled Poem 2

Thunder rattles petals from the bulbs of twin roses,
one pink, the other mauve, both turning gray-
green and yellow-brown, sickly in clear water.

The tin roof rattles like snakes living in the eaves,
their skins garland grass exactly seven months
too early. They’ll have their fill of birdlings hatched in early
spring, who live in the four corners of our jaundiced house.

When will we see lightning?

A storm approaches form the north,
just out the backdoor. Like a child afraid to open
his closet at night: what strange teeth reddened in twilight
await beyond overgrown pastures where pines grow
alone in manicured rows, what snarl and glowing eyes?

Thunder dissipated, rain and hail never came.

What did we expect? The darkening sky means
only one thing, Jeremiad weathermen say.

Two days later, the scent increases as the blooms
continue their decline—not the smell one expects from dying
things, the invariable way of decay. Lavender odor
covers the taint imperceptible if only visible.

Another petal drops, the scent distracts everyone for a moment

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Zadie Smith's On Beauty

I have just finished one of the most beautiful and compelling novels I have ever read. Zadie Smith's On Beauty is truly an amazing book. Smith is a young author, about 35 years old, and she has written three novels: White Teeth, The Autograph Man, and On Beauty. I haven't read either of the first two, but they have achieved enormous critical acclaim. She was brought on at Harvard as a Radcliffe fellow following either her first or second book. Both of these first two, I'm told, fall into that genre of hysterical realism, but On Beauty is more akin to some of the great fin de siecle English novels or Modern English novels by Forster (specifically), Lawrence, or Hardy. There were times when I got chills and even cried reading her novel. I haven't read anything recently that caused that visceral of a reaction in me, and I have read a lot in the last few months. Her novel is truly moving, and I cannot recommend it highly enough. Buy it or check it out of your library, and read it immediately.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

"I have heard there is great danger in the body" Revised

Admiring young men lounged in beanbag

chairs, plucking sweated grapes, fanned

and framed by branches of wildest origins, damned

for their wandering eyes. Why learn from bright hag


the danger of the body when they can corrupt and divide,

inclusive vision of lust suffering all

comers: ballerinas in swan-armed fall

to the hands of such men as grasp anything in sight,


their bodies stirred from pronounced motion. Exercise

caution before unlaughing vigilants who forbid

the book to preserve what is not unsavory for a few


who tiptoe, wipe smirks, and pluck eyes,

for nothing can be good art that is not simply good,

and maleficial substance can never be blithe or true.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

“I have heard said there is great danger in the body” – From Yeats, “Michael Robarts and the Dancer”

Admiring young men lounged in beanbag

chairs, plucking sweated grapes, fanned,

framed by branches of wildest origins, damned

for your wandering eye. Why learn from bright hag


the danger of the body when you can corrupt and divide,

inclusive vision of lust suffering all

comers: ballerinas in swan-armed fall

to the hands of such men as grasp anything in sight,


bodies stirred from pronounced motion. Exercise

caution before unlaughing clergy because

the Book is forbidden save only for a few:


Tiptoe, wipe smirk, pluck eyes—

offenseless—saying nothing contrary to laws,

for maleficial substance can never be blithe or true.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Untitled New Poem

Soiled smock of day’s end tossed

heavenward, spread like finger-painted gull,

floats, held by body-heat thermal,

kept aloft only so long, descends

as it must. Eyes linger on its outline, form

shifting as memory takes hold—now white,

now black, nameless glow—arms spread,

wingspan of featherless bird in flight.


Colors of eclipse of greatest moment, natural

mimesis: shape of man (imago Dei)

occludes sunlight as the martyr attempts recollection.

Ink stains hands and imprints the brain—

white smock turned grey as sleep

convinces mnemon to yield in due season.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Reading

All the winners from all of the writing competitions on campus from the whole school year will be reading Monday night, April 19th, at 7:30 pm in Heth 016. Even the Rita Riddle people will be represented, though I will only be reading once even though I won two awards--I submitted the same set of poems for both awards. Anyway, come out if you're free. There will be free snacks and coffee.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Ekklesia at the Movies 1

Tonight is the first night of "Ekklesia at the Movies." My church, Ekklesia Blacksburg, is, once a month, usually on the second Friday, but this month is weird (Doug, my pastor, forgot to ask off from his job at Starbucks, so we moved it back a week, but he forgot to ask again, so he may not be there tonight), going to watch a popular movie and follow it up with discussion. For our first attempt at this, I have chosen Serenity, the movie by Joss Whedon (creator of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel and, most recently, Dollhouse) based on his short-lived TV series Firefly. The show/movie has been called a "space Western," which is an interesting description that only makes sense if you watch the movie/show, and then it makes perfect sense.

The series was cut short (only 14 episodes) and never even had a true conclusion, and after the series was taken off the air and ultimately put on DVD, the fan-base grew enormously and, ultimately, demanded something be done. I suppose since the DVD sales for the show ended up at #1 on Amazon, the industry decided it would be worth while to satisfy fans' desires and make a full-length movie. As opposed to Buffy, which began as a flopped movie and became a hit TV series, Serenity began as a flopped TV series and became a hit movie. In my experience, people who don't even like sci-fi (or Westerns) often like Serenity, and it has taken on an even wider cult-like following over the years since its release in 2005. I remember seeing the previews for it on TV and in theaters and thinking "Oh, that looks interesting," but never seeing it. I don't remember exactly how I came to see the movie much later on (maybe two years ago or less), but I am a huge fan now.

The movie, as I say, picks up where the TV show lets off (basically), and I don't think one really needs to have seen the TV show in order to understand the movie, though I do think it makes the movie more enjoyable. I had only seen an episode or two of the TV show before I saw the movie, and clearly it didn't hurt me to have not seen the whole series. I think the only thing someone watching the movie who hadn't seen the show might not understand is the inclusion of what in the movie seem to be fairly unimportant characters, such as Shepherd Book and Inara, a "companion." These characters were enormously important in the TV series--one always wonders, just as Mal does in the movie, how Shepherd Book knows so much about things one wouldn't expect a Shepherd (Preacher, Pastor, Reverend, Priest, etc.) to know, such as the information he gives Mal about the Alliance "operative" (essentially an extremely undercover assassin who does not officially exist). Inara and Mal, in the TV series, have a complicated relationship that is only hinted at in the movie. Her vocation as a "companion" (glorified, high-class whore or prostitute, supposedly akin to a geisha) adds additional complications to their relationship, though she and Mal clearly have feelings for one another. These two characters in particular (Book and Inara) are those about whom a viewer might wonder why they were included in the movie at all. Other than that and the deeper knowledge someone who has seen the show would have of the characters (and therefore, a greater interest in their actions), I do not think someone watching the movie who has not also seen the show will miss much.

One thing that might be helpful, and that I intend to tell those who attend tonight, is that Mal had been a soldier in a sort of civil war, and we get the impression in the opening scenes of the series's pilot that he was at that point deeply religious. He wears a cross around his neck and prays to God. After we see that he has lost the battle (and the war) with terrible casualties (I think only he, Zoe, and one other person in his unit survive), the story skips ahead several years, and we then find, especially when Mal first encounters Shepherd Book, that he has become quite hostile to religion. In the movie, we see his hostility, but we do not see the reasoning behind that hostility. He says to Shepherd Book in the movie that praying to God is "a long wait for a train don't come." We can see here how he feels abandoned by God. This is not simple unbelief; it isn't that Mal does not believe in God. Indeed, if he simply did not believe in God, there would be no reason for him to be so hostile to religion (keep this in mind when you think of Richard Dawkins). He doesn't not believe, he rejects. There is a difference, I think. People reject God for different reasons. Some because they have been "burned" (as we say) by believers--some "Christian" did some unchristian thing to them. Some, such as C.S. Lewis, who rejected God after praying for his mother who died young of cancer, and Mal, who rejected God after not only losing a battle, but losing many lives of friends and co-soldiers, many of whom served under him--these reject God because they believe He has rejected them. Whether this belief is legitimate is beyond the point. Mere unbelief is passive, but rejection is hostile, and we see in Mal (as in the young Lewis) a hostility toward God.

This issue of belief comes up in the movie in interesting ways. Most obviously, we hear Shepherd Book say to Mal as he dies, "I don't care what you believe, just believe." Coming from someone who is clearly Christian, which is by definition exclusive ("I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No man comes to the Father except through Me" ~John 14:6), this message is clearly at odds with true Christian theology (true as opposed to "Christianity and water"), and could even be thought of as condemnatory. For someone who knows the Truth, belief in which determines whether one spends eternity in Heaven or Hell, to say, I don't care if you believe what I believe (even though I know through faith that I'm right and that I will be going to Heaven any second now and that if one believes something else, well, he won't be so fortunate)--that is essentially saying I don't care whether you go to Heaven or Hell, which is "not very Christian" (to borrow another phrase from Shepherd Book). Anyway, Shepherd Book's statement of belief does not only contradict orthodox Christian views of belief, but it also contradicts other aspects of the movie's internal logic. The operative believes. Indeed, he believes quite strongly, in the same way that the September 11 terrorists believe strongly. He kills entire planets of people because he believes so strongly in achieving a perfect, sinless world, regardless of the cost. Clearly Shepherd Book would not condone this sort of belief. Book attempts, I think, to place belief in contrast to the Reavers who act, not based on any thought or belief, but out of pure malice, not even intellectual malice, but an instinctive sort of malice akin to rabid dogs. However, Inara notes that the reason why Mal cannot handle the operative is because "he is a believer." Surely Shepherd Book would not want Mal to pursue the same course as the operative.

What we have to wonder is why this contradiction is in the movie. Pastor James Harleman at Mars Hill Church in Seattle argues that the contradiction is unintentional, and that Joss Whedon essentially did not notice the contradiction. This answer is possible and, indeed, probable, but I never like to assume that the author messed up, so I have to wonder what this contradiction does for the movie assuming Whedon intended it to be there. My best answer, or the one I want most to believe, is that he shows the contradiction in order to reveal just how absurd the Shepherd's remark is. Of course it matter what one believes in. Being a believer doesn't make one a good person (if we use that as our basis, which non-Christians often do, for what is a good goal in life), and it is pretty clear that the operative is not a good person. He murders on a scale that would make Hitler and Stalin envious (maybe that's not a PC remark to make; I should consider taking it back). In any case, we can clearly see that the Shepherd's remarks are clearly at odds with other aspects of the story.

The operative has what one might consider "noble" ideals. He desires a "world without sin," and it is interesting, as Harleman points out, that Whedon does not shy away from that incredibly un-PC word, Sin. The Alliance, we find out, created the Reavers in an attempt to create their opposite, just like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Jekyll wants to purge himself of evil and only ends up creating a persona that is basically the embodiment of pure (or nearly pure) evil. The Reavers, however, are not, like Mr. Hyde, nearly pure evil--they are entirely evil with no redeeming value. There is nothing good in them. Yet, once Mal realizes how they have been created, he says in response to the operative who says that a lot of innocent people are dying up there right now (in regard to a big space battle between the Reavers and the Alliance going on over Mr. Universe's planet), "You have no idea how true that is." The Reavers go from being the embodiment of pure evil to innocent people contaminated by the Alliance's attempt to create perfection. These issues create several difficulties for Christians in terms of how we should respond to them. We know that no one is innocent, and it is perhaps true that the Reavers really are what we all would be apart from the common grace of God. There is no redeeming value in us in the Grand Scheme, and the only redeeming value we have in the less grand scheme is what God has put there. When someone talks about "reaching your full potential," you should think of the Reavers and kindly decline to take his advice.

However, we must also note that it is an attempt to rid society of sin that created these creatures. Actually, only about 10% of the population of Miranda became Reavers, the rest, deprived of aggression, just eventually stopped living. What does that say? First, is aggression all that makes up sin? Without aggression, would we live in a perfect world? I think the clear answer is no, but that is apparently what the Alliance believes. Deprived of aggression, 90% of the population just dies. The people just lay down, or put their heads down on their desks, or lean against walls, fall asleep, and never wake up again. It is possible that one could take this to mean that man cannot exist apart from his sin, that only when bad (or even evil) is possible is good also possible. This sort of yin-yang principle seems in keeping with Whedon's worldview, which attempts to take into account many eastern ideas and blend them with our common western ones. As Christians, however, we look forward to the day when there is no sin, when we are all, as it were, glorified, in the presence of God. At least, that's what we say, though I think when we are very honest with ourselves, many of us cannot conceive of such a world, and when we try, are not sure we want to conceive of it. How dull it must be, we think: sitting around on clouds, playing harps, complimenting (and complementing) one another all the time, probably no joking because humor is often achieved at the expense of virtue, no alcohol or tobacco (if the Baptists are to be believed), and so on. A world in which there can be no virtue apart from temptation (to paraphrase Milton) seems ideal to us. Evil (or the possibility thereof) makes things interesting; that's why everyone reads Dante's Inferno and no one Paradiso, Milton's Paradise Lost but not Paradise Regained. So we think. I have no answers to these issues because I cannot myself conceive of perfection. I know it is not what I imagine, that it must be far better, and I know that in the way that I know I am forgiven of my sins; that is, I know consciously that I am forgiven, but I do not always feel forgiven. I know consciously that perfection must be better than I can imagine because what I imagine doesn't seem that great and I have faith (in my best of days) that God's promises are true.

But at what cost perfection? Sacrifice is always required, which the operative knows, and that is why he is so willing not only to sacrifice billions of innocent people's lives, but also his own experience of that perfection, knowing that he, like Moses, will not enter the promised land. But the operative's promised land is promised to him, not by God, but by the Alliance, who, we see, cannot achieve perfection regardless of the size of the sacrifice. Miranda is their Babel. They attempted to play God's game without obeying God's rules, and if we are to learn anything from fairy stories, it is that one must always abide by the laws of fairyland. According to Chesterton (to whom we must always defer in matters of Faerie), "This great idea, then, is the backbone of all folk-lore--the idea that all happiness hangs on one thin veto; all positive joy depends on one negative." This thread that runs through all fairy stories, according to Chesterton, is present even in our own world as well as in the world of Serenity. The Alliance seems to view the Great Sin to which all other sin can be boiled down as aggression. I have already dismissed this idea, but that is not to say that I dismiss the notion that all sin can be boiled down to one Great Sin. That Sin to me is, briefly, pride, by which I mean man's attempt to replace God with himself. The operative asks the scientist in the beginning of the film, "Do you know what your sin is? [...] Pride." This line really applies throughout the movie, most obviously for the "bad guys" but also for Mal and others of the "good guys." In the Garden of Eden, I believe we see them of pride as ultimately (self-) destructive worked out. In Satan's rebellion from God, we see it as well. In Babel, we see it again. Finally, on Miranda, we see it once more. The Alliance, rather than attempting to reach heaven by means of a great tower, attempts instead to start its own heaven on "earth," as it were. The one law from which all other laws extend, the one law that we must obey, is, in the words of Jesus, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind" (Matthew 22:37). On this "thin veto" hangs all possible happiness, and the Alliance, in attempting to make its own heaven, has crossed this line.

The Alliance, then, creates the Reavers in an attempt to do just the opposite, in an attempt to create a sin-free world. What we must notice here is that the movie recognizes sin in the world, and recognizes it as a problem. C.S. Lewis has said something poignant (as usual) that addresses this issue: "Do fish," he asks, "complain of the sea for being wet." Fish do not complain of the sea for being wet because they are created for water, for wetness. There are, of course, problems with this analogy (as with most any analogy), but the point, I believe, remains. We don't complain about that which is natural for us. Sin is unnatural because we were not created as sinful creatures; we became that way after the fall. And though all of us living now have only ever known sinfulness, we nevertheless experience an ancient yearning for sinlessness that betrays our ancestry (i.e., from Adam). That the film recognizes sin and then complains of it, or presents a possible remedy for it, evidences a desire for something that does not exist in this world--sinlessness (which is perhaps perfection, though that may be debatable). This is one of two "nameless gods" we can give a name to in the film. The second is the "made family" the movie presents (and which Harleman does a great job of discussing). The made family is not a family of flesh and blood but a family bound together, almost forced together, by a common cause or goal or some other circumstance, and I believe this idea of family is most clearly present in the Church--the Body of Christ as it extends "through all time and space [,...] rooted in eternity, terrible as an army with banners" (Lewis, Screwtape Letters). Screwtape, the devil, sees the Church as a "terrible... army with banners," which is true, but what he fails to see (owing to his particular perspective) is that the Church is also, and at least equally importantly, a family. It is a family that is stronger than blood family. Indeed, it is more real than family of flesh and blood because it is eternal. In the film's presentation of the family on board Serenity, we see an echo, or a shadow, of this most important made family.

Finally, as I draw this already way-too-long post to a close, I hope it is clear that we can see in Serenity at least, and, I think, in most (if not all) creative works, opportunities to give a name to the nameless gods of our culture, to provide the only thing that can fill in the void in all of humanity, the desire for something transcendent that is universal.